Normalizing...

At least that's how I think things are now. After a few weeks of acupuncture treatments and herbs, AF arrived on July 15th. The hormone fluctuations seem to be gone as far as hot flashes at night. I am battling intermittent bouts of acne. I swear I feel like I'm going through puberty again with all this acne. I have been more mindful about my diet as far as avoiding dairy products, sugar, and wheat. It's been tough at times, but I'm trying to keep my eye on the prize which is to get pregnant.
I had been feeling pretty good about moving on after our miscarriage until recently when my sister in law called to tell us that their cousin's wife just gave birth. I'm not sure why it bothered me so much. Maybe it was because she had texted me to call her so she could personally tell me. I would have rather she just emailed or texted me about it. I was truly happy for them. The thought never crossed my mind about being bitter or angry. It was just sadness because we wouldn't be able to see the baby we just lost. I would have been almost 15 weeks by now. Thankfully school will be starting soon and I will be extremely busy with work this year. My colleagues have been commenting that I will probably get pregnant because it's not the best time with so many commitments on my plate this school year. If that's the case, I welcome it. But for now, I'm happy to be very busy so that I will avoid too much down time to dwell on being sad.