Sunday, July 25, 2010

Normalizing...

At least that's how I think things are now. After a few weeks of acupuncture treatments and herbs, AF arrived on July 15th. The hormone fluctuations seem to be gone as far as hot flashes at night. I am battling intermittent bouts of acne. I swear I feel like I'm going through puberty again with all this acne. I have been more mindful about my diet as far as avoiding dairy products, sugar, and wheat. It's been tough at times, but I'm trying to keep my eye on the prize which is to get pregnant.
I had been feeling pretty good about moving on after our miscarriage until recently when my sister in law called to tell us that their cousin's wife just gave birth. I'm not sure why it bothered me so much. Maybe it was because she had texted me to call her so she could personally tell me. I would have rather she just emailed or texted me about it. I was truly happy for them. The thought never crossed my mind about being bitter or angry. It was just sadness because we wouldn't be able to see the baby we just lost. I would have been almost 15 weeks by now. Thankfully school will be starting soon and I will be extremely busy with work this year. My colleagues have been commenting that I will probably get pregnant because it's not the best time with so many commitments on my plate this school year. If that's the case, I welcome it. But for now, I'm happy to be very busy so that I will avoid too much down time to dwell on being sad.

3 comments:

Amy Jensen said...

Just checking in for the first time in a very long time... I'm so sorry about the miscarriage. I wish things had turned out differently. I hope that life is getting easier again. You're in my thoughts.

babyplease said...

Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. I had been thinking about you this summer and didn't know how to touch bases with you. Life is getting easier as far as moving on after the miscarriage. I hope you and your family are doing well.

Amy Jensen said...

We didn't have the time or energy to keep up the blogs anymore so I took them down.

Glad to hear things are getting easier. I can't imagine what that must have been like. Hopefully the next IVF, if you go ahead with it, will be your time. But in the meantime, and no matter what, be kind to yourself. You will have a good life no matter what happens.

We're doing good. Kids are 13 months and growing like crazy. Time flies. You can always contact me at amy@staypuppy.com.